"You must give up the life you planned in order to have the life that is waiting for you.” -- Joseph Campbell
August 28, 2012
This may be the fracturing time in my life. Where I am so torn over not knowing what to do that I break apart into pieces. And I have managed this far, dispite less than good things happening over and over again, to not let myself break. But I cannot be sure what will happen this time. So maybe I will just end up in a hospital anyway.
This is how I see things …
If I were to move: I would lose my job, my benefits, my friends, my brother. But I could just focus on grad school (but will I lose in-state tuition = HUGE DEAL), taking the Praxis exams, my jewelry design business, getting a job (wherever) after school and I will have a whole floor of a house to myself whereas here I have a futon in a living room and a closet.
If I stay: I don’t lose my job, my benefits, my friends, or my brother. My brother has offered to get an apartment together (biggest problem here is finding a pet friendly place bc my dog is staying with me). I finish school while working (without fear if out-of-state tuition), take the Praxis exams, work on jewelry in my spare spare time, and look towards finding a job after I am done with school.
Second option sounds better but a whole floor in a house?! I don’t know what to do.